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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 08:44

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

(And it was in our own minds.)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

So whats the point in blame.

And i lived it daily.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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What did i know ?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I don,t even have a pension.

Why do men like women gold diggers?

I never cut or harmed myself..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My girlfriend lied and said she never gave oral until me. She was very skilled. I’m upset with her lying. Do I dump her?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

How did the trans issue metastasize within just a decade from being a question of kindness and tolerance to a tiny minority to convulsing a whole society?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

What is it like to be the slave in a mistress-slave relationship?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Put me off passion for life!!

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So, i spoilt her more .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My family never makes their pension either.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

This is soul school!.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She was in good health!

I was 9 years of age.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She wouldn,t have been !

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I waited trembling.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He resisted the act ,that day.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Ive learnt so much.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was scared of men, in general

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We all went to grammer schools

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I could never make a relationship work though!

We were not on the streets..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Comes on , in middle age.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

It was going to be , some day.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

All the time i was locked up.

She found it foreign!.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She loved him until the end.

Im still living with it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I have no regrets .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I said to her

But ive been too sick for many years..

But, we were locked up after school.

But it wasn’t much.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

One cannot live in the past .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

When she asked me how she looked .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I was very sick at this time too.

Would this be the day?

Especially a lifetime of it.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She married twice! .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I write beautiful poetry .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was seconnd youngest,

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I will be 64.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He knew the spot.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My life is so biszare .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I couldn’t, believe it.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Who then, do I blame.?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I think the readers, may guess!

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